That's All Folks...Drives and Urges

Driving in my car, on the way to a business meeting, I had a rare and vivid few moments.

Suddenly I was living this perception: I am a consciousness, an awareness. This consciousness has drives. These drives define the nature of the specific consciousness: the drive towards solitude, the drive to build, the drive to sing.

These drives are beneficial for us, they define us, they fulfill us. The drive to explore new places then, when followed, leads to enhanced creativity at the mental level and probably every other level as well.

The consciousness also has urges. The urges are like electrical impulses, much more transient than the drives. It may be an urge for ice cream, to urinate, to stretch. These impulses do not define the beast or the nature of the consciousness: they are superficial to that.

Yes, for some few moments I was actually living that. I was aware that I am an awareness with drives and urges, instead of my usual, mundane reality, that I am Karen Baker Blum and have stuff to do.

It was sweet and clear, not like anything. No thoughts cluttered my mind, just the awareness of my consciousness observing itself, while "I" drove the car through the sunshiny spring morning.

Then the clarity began to fade as I attributed the source of the clarity to this, that or the other; thought about how I knew it would disappear, because it has in the past, and so on.

The next day I woke up to Arjuna Ardagh’s new book, The Translucent Revolution: How People Just Like You Are Waking Up and Changing the World. It was open on our home computer and I read through it hungrily. I recommend it.

The last time I read a book by Arjuna Ardagh, Waking to Oneness (or the Oneness Blessing), I was so mesmerized that I missed my train stop, had to borrow money from a stranger who, it turns out, had gone to chiropractic school with my brother-in-law, and went on a lively cab ride with a strange cast of characters.

Come to think of it, I gotta go so I can keep reading and find out what adventure is coming up next!